My month of June seems to be getting shorter and shorter, quicker and quicker! I can't believe a whole week has gone by...I still have so much to do and so much to get ready for. I don't know if I'll be able to handle it all, but a few pills and some cocktails might help a bit. Just kidding! I also seem to be losing my head when it comes to scheduling things. I used to think that my life, compared to some, was quite relaxed and flexible. Now, it seems like my list just keeps getting longer and longer, then I look farther ahead and realize that it will just keeping piling up. Of course, when I reach that point, I sit back, put away the calendar, and just breathe. Also, heading to church or just taking a few moments to realize it's just a grain of sand in a vast beach helps quite a bit. Then, I grab the calendar, think "It can be scheduled in a way to fit together and I WILL get this all done," and start scheduling. Sometimes I feel like Mo from WALL-E. The little guy keeps cleaning and cleaning but he can never seem to catch up with it all. Yet, even in what seems like an insurmountable task, he just keeps going and going like the Energizer Bunny. Maybe I should take a cue from them both...

On a different topic, I believe I need to understand and execute the word "no." I believe the reason most people always say "yes" when they are adults is because they spent most of their early developmental stages saying "no." Babies learn to say "no" as soon as they learn "mama" and "dada." So, in order to compensate for the over indulgence of "no's" in my childhood, I end up saying "yes" to everything. Yes to planning the meeting, yes to playing at this place, yes to working this function, yes to doing this, yes to going here, yes to making that, yes yes yes yes! AAA!! Someone help me before I explode with yes!! "No" has to be the shortest word with the most meaning to it in the entire dictionary. I also have this little thing called guilt come in when I say the word "no." It's like I'm taking the person's heart out and crushing it! I guess I just need to come to terms with that guilt and suck it up a lil, huh? Guess it also comes down to moderation...kind of like in shopping, you have to practice moderation. Instead of buying what you think is cute and looks good with a lot of outfits, just buy what you came for, wait a little while, then go and get the cute thing you wanted so badly. Ah, I do believe I understand the meaning of "no" now.

That's all, folks!

Renwen