Oh dear....I feel, kind of depressed for some reason. I just feel like I'm on a totally different track than the rest of the people in my world. I don't know, maybe it's because I'm just realizing that I don't want what I thought I wanted for the past 2 yrs, or it might be that I'm just realizing I need to stop trying out what other people are doing and just make my own path.
I've decided(for the moment) to go into radiology as my career. I would go to Parkland for two yrs, live at Newman, then possibly specialize in nuclear medicine or some other sort of specific area. Very easy, I would be done in 3-4 yrs, I would be able to get a good paying job, with little to no debt. If I did physical therapy, I would be in college for 5-6 yrs, I would still get the good paying job, but I would be in a bucketload of debt which is something I quite honestly don't want to deal with. Oh geez, I can't believe I'm making this decision! When did I become an adult??
On the terms of relationships....I'm just saying to heck with it for the moment. Right now, I have more important things. Guys have rarely been interested in me like that, so I'm just gonna say screw it all and if some guy actually wants to try to catch me, then he better have a lifetime supply of running shoes, 'cause he's gonna need 'em.(this is something someone said to my piano teacher, which I believe applies to her as well as me) Also, to two of my best friends(one for the guys, the other for girls), congrats on finally coming out with it!(Now I don't have to cancel the wedding plans) Anyway, with me, if guy wants me, he will most likely know where I am and how to get a hold of me, so let him try to follow me. If he can't, tough luck and pull yourself to the side of the road so another guy doesn't trip on you.
I said in the above paragraph I have more important things than guys to think about. This is going to come as a shocker to a lot of people, but I believe I need to just stop thinking about guys and concentrate solely on what makes *me* happy. Thinking about guys makes me depressed and causes me to think no one in the world loves me and blah blah blah blah. So, let's see if I can stop thinking about guys. Oh boy, this'll be great! Anyway, I realize I need to concentrate on my schooling instead of guys. A guy will find me when I'm ready for the guy, so I just forget about it and do my own thing.
Ok, done ranting, see ya laterz!
Renwen
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11 years ago
11 comments:
i doth concur with jacob...i don't think your guy-less state will last, particularly considering the fact that you've said this at least three times before that *i* remember ;) and thank you :)
Oh thanks, I am totally feeling the love from the two of you. :P And you are quite welcome! :)
Yah, we do have some good love vibes goin' on, don't we? ;)
THE FACT IS you've said three times before that you were done with guys! why should we believe you *this* time around? (if i need to, i will bring this up on sunday!)
Because, I honestly have so much on my plate, a guy would just add too much to the mix. 'sides, the two reasons I was kind of depressed are now quite happy, which means I can sit back and not have to worry about them anymore. ;) Also, if you bring this up on Sunday, you will pay for it. Btw, could you somehow please get a birthday and a Christmas gift off Jacob before Sunday comes? Because if I recall...HE STILL OWES ME!!! :P
we'll see...that's a REALLY BIG "we'll see" stella...cuz that's rather low of you, to go to a guy's girlfriend to get a Christmas/birthday gift...you do realize that, right? :P
and WATCH ME bring it up...h3h...3:) you have no dirt on me, and i've got a bodyguard...i think your threat is pretty well nullified ;)
and...once again, you've said that 3x before...forgive me if i have a hard time believing ya. ;)
The only way to get gifts off him before Sunday is through you, so too bad! :P As to the bodyguard...*shrugs* You've used that so many times it's getting old. ;)
With the guys...go ahead and bring it up. Won't matter to me. :)
if it doesn't matter, then why'd you say that i'd pay for it if i brought it up on sunday? and gift-wise...you're screwed ;)
Because I thought if you brought it up, everyone would start babbling about Tyler possibly taking me to prom and I didn't want to deal with it. However, after thinking, the likelihood of it being brought up was very low(below 15%), so I figured what the heck, I don't give a crap. :P And when you did mention guys, no one heard it 'cept moi. O:)
And as to gifts....if he doesn't give me at least one, I'll be very sad. :( He generally gets me good stuff(aka MUSIC). :P
you gotsta wait on da cash...;)
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